are you there, god?
(( creative reflections, subconscious patterns & approaching a work-in-progress poem contemplating the divine ))
Hi loves,
I’m pondering the divine again.
And myself. A fascinating aspect of being human is the ability to find patterns within your subconscious mind, which is so very often propelling us, like a silent, guiding hand.
We may not even notice unless we’re looking for it — actively reaching into our inner selves, finding that line stringing the random pearls together. Discovering a yellow brick road to a truth, or wound, buried in your personal emerald city, where (spoiler) you find yourself behind the curtain.
I’ve touched on a few of my niche interests in my recent Everything I’m loving lately post, but in the last couple of years, I found myself drawn to many new, random fixations, varying from but not limited to: quantum physics, psilocybin, remote viewing (see: astral projection), near-death experiences, UAPs, and lucid dreaming.
I poured over these interests, these pearls, wondering why I was being called to them. What did they all have in common?
I know we can just enjoy things. But looking at my behavior, I sensed I was searching.
In my poetry collection, Earth Tides, I grapple with my human experience — big, messy human emotions, and how our sacred earth helped ground me in my own skin. I realized one evening this summer, as I was listening to a podcast episode on Joshua Cutchin’s book Ecology of Souls, that I’ve shifted to seeking answers to the untouchable, unknowable, and what is beyond the human experience.
I’m seeking the divine.
I try to capture this in my current draft poem titled, “are you there, god?” which I am sharing with you here, as well as its very first, initial draft.
In this post, I take you through some behind-the-scenes editing, touch on where I’m stuck, and thoughts on my next editing steps. At the end, I’ve included some questions for creative self-reflection you can ponder when evaluating your own subconscious patterns and art.
Receiving feedback has been essential with this poem’s progress. A special, deep thanks to one of my favorite poets, Isabelle Correa, for giving me two rounds of feedback on this poem (a bonus of being one of her paid subscribers!).
Are you ready? Let’s dive in.
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